I'm sorry to hear about your stress.. that is sort of weird because you are never stressed about school. I haven't been homesick yet actually I very much enjoy living on my own. I think it's because my family was so dysfunctional and stressful it's nice to be away from it... I can sort of feel the pressure of school starting to weigh down on me too but field hockey isn't nearly as intense as outdoor was in that it only occupies one day of my weekends now so i'm doing ok... for last semester i got 2 B+'s, an A and an A+! I don't know what i got in stats though. I never thought i would be so happy with an 81% average... funny how university (and schulich in particular) has changed my outlook on marks.



It struck me as funny that you think that I've changed as a person (more independent etc.) I guess i just haven't noticed it but it felt kind of nice to hear that someone had noticed I've changed... Teila is visiting a friend in oshawa for hte weekend and everyone else goes home for weeekends so I'm on my own right now. Last night was amazing... I'm glad that I knocked on Katie's door and asked her to come. I always just saw her walking around in the washromm etc and I thought just by how she dressed that she'd be a cool person but she sort of keeps to herself... so last night was the first time I've actually talk talked to her and it was really cool. you know how i have anxieties over one on one situations with people well i actually went and initiated this one! you would be proud. anyway she's really cool and i hope that we hang out more often. teila lisa and the co. are cool and everything but they are always hyperactive all the time and it wears me down. plus they are more into hte clubbing pub scene than i will ever be. katie likes concertcs and stuff. i am actually thinking of asking her and another girl on 3 to see elephant with me tonight. i know i told you and jackie that i didn't want to see another columbine movie but i keep hearing things about it and thought it might be kind of cool. i am such a hypocrite like that. i always pass judegement on things way too early and then end up backing down. cases in point: tegan and sara... this one girl on my team that i hated at the start and now i love hanging out with her, this annyoing girl that i saw at hot hot heat and then at arcade fire last night. i coudln't stand her either and then today i saw her at berries and blooms and i was talkking to her for a bit and gave her my contact info b/c she seemed sort of cool and said we should check out concerts together because she always just goes by herself. why am i so judgemental? i don't know...



today is shaping out to be a good day for me. i slept in til like 1045 and it felt sooo nice to just not wake up to an alarm clock... then tegan and i went to the gym and i think i am actually getting into a routine of liking the gym. i still don't actually run b/c it screws up my legs. i did the bike, pushups situps and some weights today. i love the feeling after a good workout. then i went ot have some fruits at berries and blooms where i met the concert girl. and i just sat there by myself for at least an hour reading the newspaper and enjoying life. it was very serene. i feel like i like the person i am becoming.... i work out, eat healthy, see concerts... this is nice.



now i need to shower and get going.... on productive things like my readings and arrange when my dad will come here to drop stuff off that i needed. oh shit i should call viv too since she is leaving tonight.... hopefully this will post.



the reason (or one of the) that i like this idea is that it gives us a chance to look back at what we've written- what you've written and what i've written it's sort of like a journal type deal. i get so busy with school that i've been negelcting my journal lately....



talk to you later, i might have to swing coming to montreal to see the concert with you guys.... i am still not sure.